Ever since I was little I have been chubby. I was always compared to my both beautiful "Skinny" sisters which were also very different from me. I moved out of state to get away from the judgement and start a new life. Of course I did not work on myself but rather killed myself working all the time. I started school once they considered me a resident and then worked and went to school having no time to cook or even workout. My self esteem is low and I wish I could shop for the clothes I want and find cute but are never flattering. I have never considered myself to be materialistic but I never thought myself beautiful either which a problem.
I want to feel beautiful and be able to wear and do whatever I want. I feel like the weight has drained my energy and that I don't have time. I think that's the biggest hurtle. Time. So many years have gone by and its the same excuse over and over again. Luckily I have a job that has given me total control over my schedule and I can set some time to the side to cook and go to the gym.
Writing this down helps me motivate myself. I am not doing this to get attention, I can easily write this down on a word document but I feel like that would be selfish. People almost live on the internet and if they come across this and it helps then I would've helped another person. or maybe just annoyed the crap out of them.
I feel like we are all here to learn from each other and I would like to share this with you guys.
Thanks =D
P.S I don't go over my post and proof read before posting. I just post it once i'm done speaking my mind so sorry for any grammar errors.
See ya!
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